Back from the brink of suicide, they want to save others

He's lending his voice now to help others.

His life became interesting only in his 40s, he said, and he finds it "just shocking and disturbing" that he could have missed out on all that life has to offer.

Like so many who spoke to CNN for this story, he struggled to grapple with the suicide deaths of celebrities Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain last week. For him, it was more personal.

Bachman read a copy of Bourdain's bestseller "Kitchen Confidential," which recounts more than two decades of Bourdain's life, working in restaurants and indulging vices, from cocaine to heroin to booze. The book was an epiphany for Bachman. He said his life was saved because of Bourdain's willingness to share his own struggles. The chef, author and host of CNN's "Parts Unknown" helped Bachman "to put my own problems in context and realize there was so much in my life yet to come," he said.

That is a message others who've been on the brink of suicide shared with CNN: to let people know that their lives are worth saving.

Spade's and Bourdain's suicides not only turned a spotlight on this epidemic that has grown by more than 25% since 1999, they turned the nation into collective pallbearers.

Bachman is one of six survivors of depression who spoke to CNN to offer hope and guidance to a nation reckoning with the realities of suicide. One said this moment should act as an awakening on suicide prevention in America, similar to the way the #MeToo movement has empowered women in new ways.

Bound by the oft-taboo topic of suicide, the six include a woman who survived abuse and a man who hid behind success. Rape, child molestation, divorce and loneliness were just a few of the triggers that pushed them to the brink. One penned a goodbye note, and another stopped to clean her room.

'He talked me out of it'

"Just the little things helped me to feel like I'm not alone. This person loves me, this person cares about me, and if I was to leave this person, it would hurt them." -- Jessie Woo

Knowing that someone loved her and cared about her is also what kept Jessie Woo, 27, from ending her own life. That someone was her brother Jeremy.

"He talked me out of it, and that definitely was a turning point for me," said Woo, a comedian and on-air host for BET in New York.

At the time, about five years ago, "I had dealt with someone raping me." The trauma of the rape, she said, was compounded with seeing that person excel professionally. "I just felt like I didn't want to be here anymore," she said.

In the months following, Woo moved from Miami to New York, where another depressive episode eclipsed her, but she turned to her comedy and her faith as a way to cope. She created comedic posts on Instagram -- amassing more than 375,000 followers -- and "from then on, that's just how I battled my depression," Woo said.

"At a very low time, I found another gift in comedy, and it's definitely been a way for me to cope," she said. "God has given you your own gifts, and your own gifts are going to open up doors for you on his time."

As a society, Woo added, we need to stop being so isolated from one another, especially those at risk of suicidal thoughts.

"I felt like the more alone I was, the more these thoughts would come to me, and I was scared that I would try to go the suicidal route again," she said. "I think isolation is one of the biggest mistakes a lot of us make when we're going through rough times. That's definitely not the answer."

Now, Woo's dreams of being a television star finally have come true -- dreams that would never have become reality if she had closed the door on her life.

A decision 'to value life'

"I believe that suicide is people hurting deeply inside, and not knowing what to do. I encourage those who think about suicide to get help." -- Kevin Powell

Kevin Powell, 52, used his success and fame to mask his depression and suicidal thoughts. He rose to fame as a cast member in the first season of MTV's "The Real World" in 1992. He then became a writer for Vibe magazine, interviewing some of the biggest names in music, including Tupac Shakur.

He was fired from the magazine shortly before the killings of Tupac and the Notorious B.I.G. in 1997. "I found myself spinning downward fast. I self-medicated on liquor a lot," he said. "I found myself deeply depressed, in this very dark place, and thinking a lot about suicide." He struggled for four years.

It was the tragedy of September 11, 2001, that was the "wake-up call" for Powell, now an activist and author of "The Education of Kevin Powell: A Boy's Journey into Manhood." On that devastating day, Powell was stuck in Syracuse, New York. He knew two people killed in the terror attacks. "I sat there and watched, nonstop, what happened," he said. "When I made it back to New York City a day later, I walked the streets in shock with my suitcase, just staring at photos of family members missing in those buildings. I made a decision then and there to stop drinking, to value life."

He meditates, goes to therapy, exercises regularly. He credits that for his healing, and he encourages others to do the same.

'Lens of trauma and resilience'

"There's always this shock when people who seem to have what everybody wants take their own lives. The problem is the causes of suicide are so immensely complex." -- Leah Harris

Leah Harris has found her calling in healing those struggling with suicidal tendencies. At 42, the Arlington, Virginia, resident serves as a suicide-prevention advocate, with a specialty in trauma-informed care.

"I felt very strongly that I have to be open about my experiences so that I can try to prevent someone else going through with what I did," Harris said.

She was just 7 years old when she first considered suicide. She had been raised by a single mother with schizophrenia. Her mom went into altered states of consciousness, resulting in "neglect and chaos and terrifying delusions."

Harris was sent to live with a grandmother in another state. She went through issues of self-harm, substance abuse and suicide attempts. The last time she tried to kill herself was when she was 18. Her life changed, she said, "when I was able to look at my life through that lens of trauma and resilience."

That's what she tells others. She encourages people to find a therapist who gets "to the root of the long-term impacts of trauma on the mind and body."

"People have been through unimaginable things in their life and have come out the other side, and they are taking that experience to make real change."

The nation, she said, addresses suicide and mental health issues "too far downstream."

"Too much of our attention focuses on when someone is already struggling and caught in the grips of suicide," she said.

"What are we doing to move prevention much further upstream?

"We have to look at this as a public health problem."

'Start where you are and change the ending'

"You are not alone. I cannot emphasize this enough, because it's the greatest lie which depression perpetuates." -- Melissa Braverman

Melissa Braverman, 44, had "every detail planned: day, method, goodbye letters." But her turning point was when she had "three good days in a row when I didn't think about wanting to end it all."

"That gave me the hope and strength to push forward," said Braverman, who works in hospitality marketing. She is a native New Yorker, born and raised in Manhattan, whose family has a history of depression.

It's been two years since she reached her lowest point. She manages her depression with proper medication, and she makes sure to stay connected with her friends and family.

"I wouldn't be here today if they hadn't stepped in when I was in my downward spiral," Braverman said.

She said she now lives by a quote that inspired her: "You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending."

As a society, "we need to change the conversation around mental illness," Braverman said.

"Much like the long-overdue tipping point that has happened with sexual harassment, our culture needs to encourage people to share their experiences of depression and other mental health issues."

How to get help: In the US, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. The International Association for Suicide Prevention and Befrienders Worldwide also provide contact information for crisis centers around the world.